First of all let me apologize for neglecting this blog out here for so long. A new year has arrived, Christmas came, i went for a wonderful holiday, so many things happened. Yet i didn't write about any of my my not so very rare streams of thought that came up during that period.
Why?... Well i don't have an answer... Got caught up in life's not so important duties, obligations, pleasures and leisure.
Now i'm back to writing my blog, on a very auspicious day, one day before my accountancy exam. And... yeah... As u just thought i should be studying.
These study leaves were so... i'd have to say challenging, for a lack of a better word. Pressure was high, i had a math exam which i have to pass miserably, and lots of exams which i have to get through. But yet most of the time i didn't find myself studying.
The usual distraction of Facebook, a newfound addiction to Twitter, it's actually amusing what all new obsessions and likings you come up with during the study leaves. Watched so many movies, made pizza with arabic bread(kubz) and sliced cheese, at a hell lot of falafel, Cheetos Flaming Chilli, cans of Soft Drinks from lesser known drink makers like Linda and Fizzy Wizz, for saving 50 fils, and showing my support to the SME sector, even started watching cricket.
It's World Cup time... so yeah... But cricket is a game i hate and i never watch, i even thought for a while that Virat Kohli was Abhay Deol when he came in ads. That simply shows my ignorance for cricket and bollywood. Well not actually started watching a whole game, but i realised i was enjoying the last minutes of games, the Pakistan vs. Sri Lanka match, and the awesome India vs. England match which was a tight draw till the last bowl. Never thought i'd end up watching cricket.
But it was not the walks in the gullies of Deira, or eating Falafel from Al Forat and the other simple joys that these study leaves will be remembered by, but by a lesson i learnt in human relationships.
About the risks of giving love to someone and holding a person right in your heart. Because one day that person is going to break it, and the closer you that person is, the bigger the break.
However mature, emotionally controlled and settled you think your mind may be, realising that you are a teenager and you have your emotional outburst.
Thinking about the repercussions decisions your heart makes will have from your culture, traditions, church, society, community...
Realising what social pressures have affected teenagers, and then realising, i am a teenager and i have to go through all these emotions. And there's nothing new, innovative, enterprising and 'out of the box' stuff you can do about human relationships and you have to suffer heartbreak like any other teenager in any day and age.
What a study leave, you've taught me life yet again, what began in the study leaves last year before my boards seemed to come to an end in theses study leaves. But then yeah they haven't completely died.
Another thing that happened is i found God, i mean although it's embarrassing, shameless and lame to go to God on the final days before the exam, i did exactly that, believing in the power of his forgiveness and love. He created me after all.
Now i have to get back to studying accountancy, prove my critics wrong by achieving stuff, that was never expected of me, or rather was always expected of me.
Ever since i was born on this earth people have had high expectations from me, i've lived up to some and am living through some, well yeah i'm partially responsible for creating the Alphin brand, but yeah, i wanna live up to it.
So i may have just less than half a day left and drowsy eyes, but i with the power of my God, who can do wonders like creating myself am setting out to rock these exams.
All the best to me!
Pray for me brothers and sisters.
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